3rd July 2013.

Hmm… what’s happened these last few days… Well yesterday my boyfriend got and Nintendo 3DS XL so he could play the new Animal Crossing bless him! Animal Crossing is such a detailed and addictive game and I loved the old … Continue reading

Money Money Money

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I think I can speak on behalf of everyone living out there: at some point, money has or will be a problem. Whether you’re not financially stable enough to provide for yourself and others or the complete opposite and it can often create uncomfortable scenarios. These cases of not it is and always will be an issue.

At the moment I’m a student surviving off my father and I’m not the sort of person who agrees with taking advantage of their parents and I do take into consideration the amount of hours he works for his money and so I don’t ever ask for anything more than I need. However sometimes it’s nice to indulge a little, to be treated, to have that £5 ready meal instead of the £2! But it’s just not fair on him. I’ve learned to live without many many luxuries and to be grateful for what I have. I’m not selfish, I’m not naive and I know how to survive on my own two feet; but I still can’t help but feel guilty.

I know there are people out there who feel they ‘deserve’ the finer things in live and they’re all cosy with their money stacking up and they come from a money tree of a family and I just feel that they should take a step back and really appreciate what they have. Actually think about the things they ‘need’ and separate them from the ‘wants’.

Money is a huge motivator in life for me. It affects practically every decision I make and choices I make for the future. I just don’t want to be scrimping and saving my whole life. I want to be proud of what I’ve achieved and have something to show for it. Plus I’ve promised my Dad a nifty two-seater sports car… oh and a room in my huge house so he won’t have to go to an old people’s home heheh ;).

Not quite sure what the point is that I’m trying to make here but I just felt the need to write about something that’s troubling me.

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University Decisions.

DSC_7051Choosing the right university can feel like a massive job and a lot of thought and research goes into it – it’s such a huge decision.

I’m right in the middle of the process and I’m – like many other AS level students out there – feeling very overwhelmed. I’ve got all these ideas rushing through my head of all the dream jobs and careers I’d love to head in the nearby future but then you’ve got to step back and get back to reality. What is actually possible? What am I capable of? How much do I really want this?

The dream job for me would be to be a fashion journalist, critique, designer and magazine editor. However I’m sure as you read that you rolled your eyes and thought I’m completely contradicting myself and well… I am. I still don’t know what I want and time’s slipping through my fingers rapidly. I’d love to be part of the fashion industry but what specialist sector is what I’ll decide later. I think that’s the best way to start, what idustry to you want to go in? Then think: what makes you happy? What do you want out of your career?

I personally find that money is a huge motivator for me as I grew up struggling and I’m not prepared to live my whole life like it. There’s so much I want to do and have throughout my life and nothing comes free nor very cheap. I’m good at writing, photography, being creative and I’m opinionated so I think I’d fit nicely into the fashion industry but it’s mega competetive. Am I ready for that?

I’m very determined and when I set a target I’ll try my upmost best to get there but then I think… is that good enough? So as you can see, I’m forever doubting myself and so then it springs to mind that I just throw myself at a fashion related course and make diversions from there.

I’ve found a fashion journalism and marketing course but it’s at a university I don’t feel is very highly accredited. Another university is simply fashion journalism but writing about everything can lead me into all different sorts of sectors and gives me a chance to try new things and write about them which, to begin with, sounds like a great start to me.

For now though, I need to stop worrying about the future and concentrate on the present. I won’t get anywhere if I fall at the first hurdle.

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